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Why is everyone having a break-up??!! I think I agree with them, this semester is so WRONG. May sumpa ba ang sem na to… or is it just the bad karma of a very wonderful first semester… last sem was the best part of my whole college life!! True, it’s not perfect but everything in that semester seemed to fall in the right places…

1)     Last sem I met very interesting people and this sem, most of them will be graduating… tears… mamimiss ko si kuya jayjay, roma, jik, nhey, carlo, toni!! One semester is simply not enough to spend with these excellent people!!

2)     Last sem things I wasn’t looking for just knocked on my door and this sem, it flew away faster than it had came, leaving me right there by my doorstep waiting for the wind to blow it back.

3)     Last sem, I was very confident and pleased with myself, but after that, here I am… lost? insecure? feeling inadequate? Ewan…

4)     Last sem, I gave my brightest smile to the world as though each day just kept getting better… I was looking at my first sem pictures and I said to myself, girl “maganda k pala”?!! this sem, a smile is just a smile. My ordinary smile. My ordinary way of looking positive.

5)     Last sem the sky was painted in bright rainbow colors, one color a day, a different shade, a different hue but this sem parang it’s just one color slowly fading as the moonlight starts to shine. Exciting kasi iba-iba araw-araw pero malungkot kasi at the end of the day I would look back on the day that was.

6)     Last sem had a perfect start, this sem it’s a clean slate but it had the marks of yesterday’s page.

7)     Last sem my friend and her boy friend, we’re getting along pretty well, but this sem… “we can’t see each other anymore.” Ha?? Anong nangyari… can’t grow up with a “kid” you thought you’ve fallen in love with anymore?

     Late last sem, KC and her boyfriend were great together, ngayon iniwan lng namin si KC for 2 hours, wala na agad sila!! Last sem jonz had her series of break-ups this sem I think it’s for good. Ano ba yan, ate??!! i want to feel your pain but mine’s a different story…at least sa inyo you know what to feel… ako I don’t even know what I had, what I want, and what I have. Hope you get over it, find your direction and get there, be stronger, and move on……

9)     Last sem, I could not differentiate mornings from evenings… parang tuluy-tuloy lang.. ngayon a day has its ending?

10) Last sem, pumayat ako… this sem joke time na naman ako sa bahay kasi taba-taba ko daw, takaw-takaw ko pa daw… mag-exercise daw ako, wag daw akong kain nang kain.. eh sige na nga… magbacbacan ulit tayo para pumayat ulit ako…hehe…

Why can’t you just have so much of the good stuff??!! But what’s totally good about this sem is that it was a learning experience. It gave me lessons that I would reflect on everyday… it made me realize a lot about myself or it made me want to realize more… ngghhh…

Hey!! this is going to be my first blog post ever. excited ako… haha!!! ;D it may seem quite late for me to ever have a post but hehe, there’s no harm in trying anyway. from the very beginning i don’t really like the idea of havng a blog but after a year of contesting with my friends and siblings i finally realized that maybe… yes, a blog could be a venue for my unraveled thoughts. it won’t be a place for my secrets nor would it document my daily activities but it would be some place where i can share a part of my random thoughts. <tama dba?!> akala ko dati a blog would be like a diary… pero hindi pwede un eh… online diary??! i would be killing myself with my own hands!!

next time na lang ulit… im just excited to try this one out and type some words… nyak!! parang bata!! hehe… see ya!! (corene!! isay!! magbblog nko!! magbasa kayo ah…) ;D

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